The Psychedelic Diaries, Vol I: When you journey inward
“One mark of a great mind is a willingness to change it”
— Walter Isaacson
This series chronicles monthly macrodosing — full-dose, intentional psychedelic therapy sessions — over a five year period. We’ll cover the challenges, preparation, and overall impact.
The Psychedelic Diaries
- Volume I: When you journey inward
- Volume II: Seven types of profound macrodose trips
- Volume III: Five tips to prepare for a macrodose
- Volume IV: Seven realizations from macrodosing
- Volume V: Entering the “Mozart Zone”
- Volume VI: Seven challenges to macrodosing
- Volume VII: Making your macrodose playlist
- Volume VIII: Seven more “Mozart Zone” observations
- Volume IX: Seven strange aspects of macrodosing
- Volume X: Getting started with macrodosing
Like most great stories, this one starts with a girl.
Her name was Melanie and I had a longstanding crush. She had charm, beauty, and a disarming personality.
Unfortunately, she had a boyfriend.
I met him at a posh Sunset Blvd lounge in Los Angeles at my sister’s birthday party.
After 2 minutes of small talk, it became clear: I was outclassed.
He was intelligent, genuine, and successful.
Before I could even process the hit to my ego, he inexplicably reaches in his pocket, pulls out a handful of mushrooms, and hands them to me.
I was incredulous, intrigued, and soon found out that Melanie was also engaging in psychedelic sessions.
So, in a misguided attempt to keep up with the joneses, I began searching for mushrooms.
It all changed with my first intentional psychedelic therapy session.
I had done recreational psilocybin a few times as a young adult but never in an intentional setting.
After a dozen dormant years, I dove back into the psychedelic world with a couple friends.
It was ostensibly another recreational session, like the previous experiences. However, out of sheer luck, I ended up breaking away from the group and spending time alone.
Instead of enjoying the laughs, visuals & absurd novelty, for the first time in my life a psychedelic compound took me inward.
That experience changed everything.
A new path
Something profound happened and I wanted more.
I began experimenting on myself like Sasha Shulgin with full-dose intentional sessions every month. Many were alone, many with others, many guiding others.
A strange and audacious gesture from Melanie’s boyfriend led to a major demarcation point in my life.
My health improved, career took off, and I found deep sense of purpose.
These Psychedelic Diaries will detail the experience.